The Ego Part 1

Why am I writing about ego? Because that is the information I am getting. I am getting it for me and for everybody. This is what I got last night: the ego is the warrior. Whispers in your head or yells at you sometimes. Takes pleasure in negativity. Feeds insecurity. Makes you worry about being wrong or embarrassed; being made a fool of; feeling stupid. Not measuring up or being smart enough. (Mine used to say I was a F%$# up, nobody cares about me or loves me and I have to protect myself against people which included a list of how people I know have wronged me and would bring it up often.)

The ego can feel like having the enemy on the inside. They know your weakness or insecurity or pain and can rub salt in it by reminding you when anything triggers thoughts thoughts and it just doesn’t let it go. They can stay mad at people and just go around and around about why. There are times they are chattering away and times when they are quieter. An intimate frienemy that you can’t control or get away from.

I was involved with a program that talked about the ego twice born. Part of that concept was to recognize when your ego is present (like yammering in your head) and you give it a job like being in charge of you brushing your teeth. When we did certain work, our egos were quieter. It was helpful to distinguish some of the thoughts in my head were from there and not a more genuine part of me.

This morning it came to me that I could only write about this and genuinely and humbly do whatever work I am supposed to do because it’s not about me or about me being special. There is a clear pattern to what she says that I can now hear. This is very recent clarity that came about in doing readings. I can hear/see/sense information from Spirit and then there was this other voice that came in with ‘ideas’ which is one of her patterns – she desperately wants to feel clever and creative. I am having to manage her as I am typing this right now. My progress is being able to recognize it more in the moment. Since communicating with her, I feel less violated/intruded upon and can see it for what it is and let it go.

What is your clarity about your ego? Do you know what triggers them to be louder or softer? What or who does your ego try to protect you from? What does your ego want to prove to your or others about you? Can you see a way to have more space for them and not make it wrong? Maybe you don’t resonate with this at all. That’s okay. There is so much more to the Spiritual world. I guess this is where they want to start.

Signing off with love, Noelle