Author: noelledeane

My ego’s name is Sapphire. I just really met her – like took the time to talk with her and treat her like a separate being rather than this annoyance I have to try to manage – 2 days ago. Recently, her input seemed pretty easy to distinguish as I heard it come through during readings. It would sound something like “HEY, I’ve got a brilliant idea, how about…” She loved to think she could think of something that nobody else could. That might sound helpful but it would feel like an impulse to share it, it would exclude others and be kind of dominating and it is definitely not the experience of being connected to source. I am not willing to let myself go down the path of shame about this, goodness knows I have spent enough of my life there. I can easily remember doing an important part of my regular job where I gave her free reign. I was supposed to be supporting others to come up with ideas of what would help their clients have success. Just saying – I usually made that all about me wanting to feel clever because of MY ideas. Yikes! How very 13 of me and not cute on a 40 something, now 50 something person. There’s lots more to share about my actual conversation with Sapphire but this feels like enough for now. To be continued. Signing off with love, Noelle

It’s about 4 a.m. I am up and typing. Victory for me is getting out of bed after reconciling myself to the fact that I am awakened around this time everyday now. And, if I say about myself that I am disciplined and obedient (to Source) then I guess I need to do that from now on. I get so much good information at this time of day, I can feel the wrongness of wasting the opportunity or thinking negatively about it. I remembered Michael Jackson being interviewed on TV many moons ago and answering the question about where his music came from. He mentioned something about it coming to him and joking that he was afraid not to answer the call because if he didn’t, the music would get sent to Prince. They might have been considered rivals at that time. Anywho, here I am. I am here to share with you what has been shared with me. Nothing fancy. Nothing added. I may go back and recapture a few things for you that felt very big for me and you may get something out of it as well. One of the words that came to me was ‘transparency’ and then a stream of ways I could be transparent about this journey I am on could be helpful in you seeing yourself, your experiences, what you may be curious about and maybe inspirations like the ones I have received will spark you to be so moved that you’ll be up at 4 a.m. or whenever the call comes to answer it. Signing off with love, Noelle